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Feral-verse - Contagion 3/? (FF7 AU, Feral-verse)
54 hisses or Hiss in my ear....
madamhydra From: madamhydra Date: June 15th, 2007 07:23 pm (UTC) (Link)
Based on the assumptions you're making then I agree with you, but since I tend to assume that Sephiroth was experimented on as a child, not as much as Cloud was post-Nibelheim, or at least not as intensely, in my AUs Sephiroth had a worse childhood.

The relative misery of Cloud's and Sephiroth's upbringing very much depends on the individual writer's creative decisions. In my other AU (COI), Cloud's childhood and life was pretty darn horrific, with constant abuse from virtually every direction. ^_-

Completely. The way Sephiroth's treated as a tool and not a person's a bit of a theme in my writing as well. I mean, you forgive people who are important to you, but you throw away and replace a broken tool.

Indeed. Sephiroth does have a strong sense of self-value in the professional sense -- he knows that he's talented and very good at what he does, etc. -- and is justifiably proud and confident in that respect, but he doesn't have a strong sense of self-value in the personal sense (i.e., independent of his performance 'on the job').

Thus, when he makes a 'mistake' (and admittedly, the whole Jenova/Meteor episode was one massive oopsie), he doesn't expect forgiveness from others. Which is rather ironic, when you think about it, because if any of the other three were to transgress against him (for anything short of outright betrayal for purely selfish reasons, which just ain't going to happen), I'm reasonably sure that he would certainly forgive them. So Sephiroth is perfectly capable of valuing others, but has a badly skewed sense of his own value.

And I guess that feeds into him not feeling like he's worth much as a person. It's no surprise that he's regressed emotionally after Jenova played around with him.

Yes, and feral-Sephiroth will have an unfortunately habit of keeping his own feelings and needs tightly controlled. Before (pre-Zack), it was to protect himself from others and to avoid making himself vulnerable. After he goes feral, he starts doing the same thing, but this time, to protect his mates. However, just like the last time, they're not about to let him get away with it, of course. ^_- He'll eventually relax and stop suppressing so much, but it will take some time and work from his mates.

(continued below -- gah, how I ramble! ::sheepish grin::)
54 hisses or Hiss in my ear....